Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Happy Humpday!
Wednesday at last - you know what I always say when we reach Wednesday... It's all downhill from here ...
Nothing much new here. School is going well, it's a nice routine to be in. I'm incredibly excited to go to Sartell this weekend. We haven't seen Chris' family in probably 3 weeks, and I miss the puppies!! It's also Chris' brother Dan's, first football game of the year. He's a senior this year... and it's my 3rd season of watching him play. I can't believe it... already! Where have the last 3 years gone... wow! Go Sabres! Haha! I want this jacket, SO bad for this year....
Alright, off to work... :)
Nothing much new here. School is going well, it's a nice routine to be in. I'm incredibly excited to go to Sartell this weekend. We haven't seen Chris' family in probably 3 weeks, and I miss the puppies!! It's also Chris' brother Dan's, first football game of the year. He's a senior this year... and it's my 3rd season of watching him play. I can't believe it... already! Where have the last 3 years gone... wow! Go Sabres! Haha! I want this jacket, SO bad for this year....
Alright, off to work... :)
Monday, August 28, 2006
The need to let some of this out...
Happy Monday, I guess! I know it's around 2pm, and I'm just blogging now - but that's how it worked out today I guess. Not much new. Went to the family reunion on Saturday. Met with some family...went home to our place Saturday night...Went out to eat...Went for a drive...Watched tv... had Dairy Queen while snuggled up on the couch...Relaxed...went to sleep.
Sunday, we got up... relaxed some more... went out to lunch (wow, we're eating out too much.)...went for a drive... went to Cabela's and Chris spent some moolah...I studied and finished up some homework... Chris tore his checkered flag decal out of the back window of his truck, and added deer decals instead... (that fits him better anyway, he's a hunter)... and we went back in and Chris had left overs... and I had a bowl of cereal... studied some more...Chris went upstairs on the computer... I finished up about 10-15 minutes later, by this time it's 9:15, so I'm ready for bed... I go up, visit with Chris by the computer like I usually do before bed, and then he has the nerve to tell me right after I sat down, that he likes his alone time when he's upstairs and I'm downstairs and that it's just nice to be that way... my mouth dropped, I said are you kidding me...you have Tuesday-Thursday nights until 9 or 10pm alone... you want to be alone now? You're the one who's been telling me that we have to spend the weekends together with quality time, because of the middle of the week...and he told me well I was washing and cleaning my truck for 2 hrs on Saturday and you didn't come out and visit... I told him you knew I was helping my mom get the food ready for the reunion... AHH. The only thing I let myself think was that he was trying to hide something. He admitted that when he told me he wanted his alone time - he made it sound like I was interupting him. He appologized - he snuggled up to me, and off to bed we went....
I've come to the conclusion that I have a serious Anxiety/Hypochodriasis issue. Don't ask... but I worry 24/7 whether it's about my regular life, work life, love life, or health life.... It has got to stop. STAT.
More pictures...
Here are some of my decorating... Notice the new rug in living room and dining room, the table runner, the end table accessories... the turkey towel on stove :) ... and new pillows!
New Pic...
I personally don't much care for this one - but here it is. It's from our family reunion on Saturday. I look like a goon... and Chris didn't smile (barely)... go figure!
Psst... I bought some new decor stuff for our living room, and dining room... I took some pics, so I may post them later. :)
Everyone have a wonderful day!
Friday, August 25, 2006
Friday!
Oh I feel so bad... A girl I work with - she's about 25-26... her dad had lung cancer 3 yrs ago. They took out a lung and he's been cancer free for 3 yrs... he went back in to the doc the other day because he's had pain in his side for the past 3 weeks... they did a bone scan yesterday and he has cancer in his side, stomach, chest, and head....... she left for the day. Say some prayers ... if you pray...
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Picture Time!
****Click on picture to make bigger****
My mom just sent me this pic of us - it's from last Thanksgiving - I thought it was cute... It's not the best, but my mom is on the left.. Chris is in the red (not smiling!!)... I'm the 3rd one over, of course - and the last guy is my uncle Richard. He's like 7 ft tall... seriously! :)
My mom just sent me this pic of us - it's from last Thanksgiving - I thought it was cute... It's not the best, but my mom is on the left.. Chris is in the red (not smiling!!)... I'm the 3rd one over, of course - and the last guy is my uncle Richard. He's like 7 ft tall... seriously! :)
And I had...
...this, waiting for me when I got home last night!
2 dozen roses...
Hershey bar...(cause I love chocolate)...
The Daniel Powter cd I've wanted for the past week...
...and the most perfect card...ever.
Wow, do I love him.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
School, School...
Just wanted to pop in and say hi. I'm just about ready to go to my Psych class. I got all my homework done for tomorrow night... boy does that feel good. Ahh....
Alright, wanted to say hello. Hope you all are having a good night...
P.S....
I talked to Chris a little while ago, and he said there is a surprise for me on the kitchen table..................................hmmmm. Flowers? Card? hmmmm. Either one would be nice, I've never gotten them from him in the 2 yrs we've been together. :)
Happy thoughts!
Alright, wanted to say hello. Hope you all are having a good night...
P.S....
I talked to Chris a little while ago, and he said there is a surprise for me on the kitchen table..................................hmmmm. Flowers? Card? hmmmm. Either one would be nice, I've never gotten them from him in the 2 yrs we've been together. :)
Happy thoughts!
Woohoo for this!!
Daily Horoscope
August 23rd, 2006
Some news will come along today that sets most of your immediate future in stone. Things are clearer. This is the direction you were hoping to take things in, so be joyous with this unexpected (but delightful) turn of events. Move ahead as quickly as you can -- this is not the time to put a lot of effort in planning or preparation. Instead, action is what it's all about. Ignore whatever is holding you back and enjoy the freedom you are about to experience.
:) :) :) :)
Happy Humpday!
I'm happy to report that school went great last night! :) I have Psychology tonight from 6:30-9:10. Last night I got bombarded with homework and reading, so I'm just going to go straight to school tonight and study and finish that up for tomorrow night. My instructor is very nice - he's an older guy (probably 65-70 yrs old) and reminds me of Chris's grandpa - SO much! So that's kind of nice... He said he's not requiring out attendance to class, but we have to sign our name at the end of each class - and he'll give us 5 pts for each attendance. So if we're there for 20 classes - that's 100pts= 100%.... and his deal is, if we do poorly on a test, he will replace it with whatever your attendance score is. A good incentive to go to class!
Other than that, not much new. I got to work this morning and found this in my purse....
"I Love you more than Anything in the world and I am sooo PROUD of you.
Makes me wanna marry you!
Just gotta get your parents OK First!!!
I love you,
Your big guy :)
So, that made me happy! I got home last night and the dishes were done and laundry was all started... that makes me happy too. I think we get along better we have have time apart. What couple doesn't, you know? Chris stayed home today too- it's the 7th week that he's been working 50-60 hour weeks... I think it's finally catching up to him... 12hr + days could take a toll on anyone I think... So, he's home with a migraine. Those are never fun!
Well, I best get my butt to work - I just wanted to update on the school thing... :)
Have a wonderful Humpday!! It's all downhill from here....
K
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
| You Are An ENFJ |
| The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. |
Happy Tuesday!
| Your Personality Is |
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
The Three Question Personality Test
Monday, August 21, 2006
Good Morning
Ahh, so I could have used another 2-3 hours of sleep this morning. But I made. I'm here, and I'm actually really excited/happy. I don't know what the deal is. I think I'm looking forward to classes starting tomorrow night. At last, my life long dream of having a career - starts tomorrow night! I'll have Math on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 6-7:40 and Psychology on Wednesdays from 6:30-9:10. I'm liking the Tuesday/Thursday time slot for classes. It will be nice to be out of there by 7:40.
Other than that - I had an awesome weekend. Chris and I went to my parents. Friday night we just pretty much relaxed. Saturday we got up and I mowed the lawn, since my dad fixed my brakes on my car. It didn't bother me, that was the least I could have done for him since I didn't have to pay him anything - and I love mowing the lawn. It used to be my job until I moved out. It's like 5 acres, and takes 2+ hours to mow, if you have one lawn mower. Chris started to mow with me - but he got frustrated because I was being too picky! It was the first time he had ever mowed with a riding lawnmower - so it was a new experience. But evidently I wasn't patient enough. Oh well - he bonded with my mom on the porch until I was done, and played with Rex. It was nice to see them talking like that. Chris is a pretty shy, laid back guy. He'll carry on a conversation, but it just takes a while to get warmed up. So anyways, it was nice to see that. Apparently they discussed what they're going to get me for my birthday. If only I could find out... It will be my 21st, and golden birthday - and I'm asking for a lap top. Whatever it is, I'm sure I'll be happy! :)
After I mowed lawn, we relaxed for a few hours and then got ready and went to the Twins game. They lost to the White Sox 4-1 but they won on Friday and Sunday - so they won the series. That's good I guess. Our seats were pretty damn good for the seats we were in. We were on the upper deck on row 229 out of 230. So, damn near to the top - but right in front of 3rd base. The dome was packed, and well - going up and down them 30 steps was a chore. Everyone sitting by us, got to the top and just sat there - out of breath! Haha! On the way to and from, we rode the lightrail from the Mall of America to the Metrodome. It took a half hour and was only $7 for both of us to ride, round trip. It was fun on the way there because we had an actual seat, and it was day light so we could see the other parts of Minneapolis, the Airport, Bloomington, and around the Fort Snellling area - but on the way back the trains were packed since the game got out - and we had to stand for a half hour in a cramped area touching someone you didn't know. Needless to say I was cuddled up pretty close to Chris. All in all - it was wonderful. We don't do much of that kind of thing - so it was nice to get out of the house with him. It's just nice to get in a different atmosphere. Then after the game - my parents set up their little camper - just incase my aunt and uncle we're going to come stay Saturday night... even if they didn't we thought it'd be fun to stay in there. So, we got home - got the blankets, and the way we went. We called my best friend from high school. She is now Chris's friend, and she came over and spent the night. We went out to eat, and just relaxed. It was nice sleeping in the camper. We had the air conditioner on - although we didn't need to. But we had that on, and slept peacefully. It was so nice to wake up in the morning and it was calm and cool, and the dew was on the ground. I know it's getting closer to fall.... I'm excited! I actually got to wear a sweatshirt for part of the day Saturday. Woohoo!
Sunday was filled with relaxing until about oh, probably noon and then meeting my parents in El Paso for El Paso days. It was a blast. Chris got a good idea of how all the little towns operate in Western Wisconsin. Needless to say - There were many bar floats with trucks pulling trailers - made by some of the local bars.... there were 4 semi's driving with flat beds on the back - which were floats from the neighboring bars in the vicinity... They had D.J's and half of them were incredibly intoxicated. I saw many people I graduated with. I didn't make much contact with them. Although it was nice to see them, as some of them have changed. Some have babies, some are married (yes already). I don't know, it's just nice to see change I guess. We watched the 2 hour long parade, visited with my grandma and a few relatives - and at 4:30, we headed back to towards my parents house. We packed up my car, stole a few decorating things from my mom (she said it was okay! haha) and the way we went. We stopped at the Machine Shed to have dinner - it was really nice... we finally got home around 7:30 or so... I cleaned the living room and kitchen, and put some of the decorations up and we were on the computer for a little bit - and off to sleepy we went.
Now, here I am - happy, excited, and just content I think. You know when you have those feelings that you're just... here... you're just, peaceful and happy with how things have turned out... That's how I feel right now.
Hope you all have a wonderful day... I'm going to try my hardest to drink 100oz of water today... Yikes!
Other than that - I had an awesome weekend. Chris and I went to my parents. Friday night we just pretty much relaxed. Saturday we got up and I mowed the lawn, since my dad fixed my brakes on my car. It didn't bother me, that was the least I could have done for him since I didn't have to pay him anything - and I love mowing the lawn. It used to be my job until I moved out. It's like 5 acres, and takes 2+ hours to mow, if you have one lawn mower. Chris started to mow with me - but he got frustrated because I was being too picky! It was the first time he had ever mowed with a riding lawnmower - so it was a new experience. But evidently I wasn't patient enough. Oh well - he bonded with my mom on the porch until I was done, and played with Rex. It was nice to see them talking like that. Chris is a pretty shy, laid back guy. He'll carry on a conversation, but it just takes a while to get warmed up. So anyways, it was nice to see that. Apparently they discussed what they're going to get me for my birthday. If only I could find out... It will be my 21st, and golden birthday - and I'm asking for a lap top. Whatever it is, I'm sure I'll be happy! :)
After I mowed lawn, we relaxed for a few hours and then got ready and went to the Twins game. They lost to the White Sox 4-1 but they won on Friday and Sunday - so they won the series. That's good I guess. Our seats were pretty damn good for the seats we were in. We were on the upper deck on row 229 out of 230. So, damn near to the top - but right in front of 3rd base. The dome was packed, and well - going up and down them 30 steps was a chore. Everyone sitting by us, got to the top and just sat there - out of breath! Haha! On the way to and from, we rode the lightrail from the Mall of America to the Metrodome. It took a half hour and was only $7 for both of us to ride, round trip. It was fun on the way there because we had an actual seat, and it was day light so we could see the other parts of Minneapolis, the Airport, Bloomington, and around the Fort Snellling area - but on the way back the trains were packed since the game got out - and we had to stand for a half hour in a cramped area touching someone you didn't know. Needless to say I was cuddled up pretty close to Chris. All in all - it was wonderful. We don't do much of that kind of thing - so it was nice to get out of the house with him. It's just nice to get in a different atmosphere. Then after the game - my parents set up their little camper - just incase my aunt and uncle we're going to come stay Saturday night... even if they didn't we thought it'd be fun to stay in there. So, we got home - got the blankets, and the way we went. We called my best friend from high school. She is now Chris's friend, and she came over and spent the night. We went out to eat, and just relaxed. It was nice sleeping in the camper. We had the air conditioner on - although we didn't need to. But we had that on, and slept peacefully. It was so nice to wake up in the morning and it was calm and cool, and the dew was on the ground. I know it's getting closer to fall.... I'm excited! I actually got to wear a sweatshirt for part of the day Saturday. Woohoo!
Sunday was filled with relaxing until about oh, probably noon and then meeting my parents in El Paso for El Paso days. It was a blast. Chris got a good idea of how all the little towns operate in Western Wisconsin. Needless to say - There were many bar floats with trucks pulling trailers - made by some of the local bars.... there were 4 semi's driving with flat beds on the back - which were floats from the neighboring bars in the vicinity... They had D.J's and half of them were incredibly intoxicated. I saw many people I graduated with. I didn't make much contact with them. Although it was nice to see them, as some of them have changed. Some have babies, some are married (yes already). I don't know, it's just nice to see change I guess. We watched the 2 hour long parade, visited with my grandma and a few relatives - and at 4:30, we headed back to towards my parents house. We packed up my car, stole a few decorating things from my mom (she said it was okay! haha) and the way we went. We stopped at the Machine Shed to have dinner - it was really nice... we finally got home around 7:30 or so... I cleaned the living room and kitchen, and put some of the decorations up and we were on the computer for a little bit - and off to sleepy we went.
Now, here I am - happy, excited, and just content I think. You know when you have those feelings that you're just... here... you're just, peaceful and happy with how things have turned out... That's how I feel right now.
Hope you all have a wonderful day... I'm going to try my hardest to drink 100oz of water today... Yikes!
Friday, August 18, 2006
Happy Friday!!!
Wow, already!! I'm happy to say this week has gone fairly well - compared to last week, that's for sure. No fights between the boy and I - can you believe it!!! Last night we were talking about that, it was nice. I was chatting with a girl here at work earlier this week and she said, you know - some relationships you can get by with being happy all the time, no fights, nothing - but some, you fight, you have small arguments, you get angry/furious - but, you still return and love one another. Sometimes that makes you closer.... and I'd have to say I believe what she was saying. It's true. The fights that Chris and I have, 1/2 of them are stupid, little "who cares" arguments. Don't get me wrong, some are huge - but, we appologize, and move on. As long as the love is still there - that's all that matters. If we still have fights, and the love fizzles away - then we know it's time. I'm not worried about that though.
Nothing new this week unfortunately. I had my dad drive my car yesterday and he said the rotors are really bad - so we're off to Wisconsin (finally!!!) this weekend so he can fix them. What would I do without my daddy! haha! Then yesterday Chris through out the idea go to a Twins game. Guess what... We bought the tickets last night. He always mentions things but never ever follows through. I get my hopes up, then they crash to the ground... and last night, we got them. We're going tomorrow night. It's the Twinkies vs. White Sox. It should be a good match up I'd think! We got fairly good tickets ... although there weren't many left apparently. We kept trying to choose different tickets - other than gen admission and we kept getting the same two. So we chose the ones in section 229 on the upper deck, right in line with 3rd base. They should be fairly good, I'd think! :) I'm excited... Very!
Hmm... I think that' s about all. I'm STARVING! I have Cheetos and Sour Cream and Cheddar Ruffles chips at my desk - but unfortunately they're for the little inside bbq we're having later today. I think I need to get a little snack. Eek.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Hahahahah!!!
So, a guy has a pet duck - he brought it into the vet because he hasn't seen it move for quite some time.
The vet says, "Well... I'm sorry Sir, but your duck is dead." and the guy replies, "No, it can't be - I want another opinion." The doctor leaves the rooms, and goes and get's the Labrador. The Labrador gets up on the table, looks at the duck - and then looks up at the vet and shakes his head No. The vet says, "I'm sorry sir, but your duck is indeed dead." and the guy replies again, "No, it cannot be - I want a third opinion". The vet returns with a Cat. The cat gets up on the table, sniffs at the duck, looks up at the vet and shakes its head No. The vet says, "Sir, there is nothing more we can do" and the guy replies, "Alright, so I guess your right... How much do I owe you?".
Vet replies, "$240 dollars". The guy says, "What!! $240 Dollars to tell me my duck is dead?" and the Vet says, "Well, if you would have only had me it would have been $90 but now you have the Lab Tests and The Cat Scans!"
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
New Music Video From David "The Hoff" Hasselhoff - "Jump In My Car"
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Happy Wednesday.
So, I never had the chance to update this morning. I appologize. Not that there where many of you hoping and waiting off of my updates, but it's just a nice accomplishment of the day to get out what I need to get out, or what has been bothering me. I.E: The past couple days! It's a little theraputic to write on here, so that's why I choose to continue.
Not much new here in my life. My friend I blogged about a few days ago now sent me an email fuming at the choices I'm making with Chris and that she doesn't want me to complain ever again... etc. You get the point. Yes, she's very controlling. Yes, she's very opinionated. Yes, she lives in a fairytale life. Yes, she thinks she rules all. No, I'm not going to listen to her. While I was having my issues and thoughts with Chris - I took the opportunity and confided in her for advice, comfort, and just a basic friendship.... much to my surprise (not really) she grew to hate Chris. She judged him, and has hated him since day 1 that we started dating. She's the judging type. I'd like a friend who does not judge by all the bad. There for, I'm staying away for a little while. Kind of upsetting since I've been friends with her since well - forever, but I don't want to be around that negativity when I try to go to her for the positive. Oh well - I guess. I have other out there who care, for now.
I'm in a good mood. Things at home are good. Chris is sweet - and is doing all the things that make me happy. We haven't fought for a few days ... only because I stopped and re-analyzed my attitude. It worked. Goes to show, alot of the issues were caused by me, unfortunately. But, in a way that's good because now it's something I can control. You know?
This weekend we're heading to Wisconsin to see my parents. They're only about 1 hr and 10-15 minutes away so it's not too bad. Then Saturday night we're driving back to Minneapolis to go to the Twins vs. White Sox game. Woohoo! Chris just threw that by me today at lunch ... so I'm hoping we're going. He wants to look at tickets tonight - and I checked today. There are only a few left - so we better make a move tonight if we want to go. He even offered to pay for 'our' friend if she wanted to go. So, we'll see. I'm excited. Then Sunday we have a parade to go to for an old town days type thing. It's not your typical parade. It's old farmers, old crazy mis matched bands...it's nuts!! Literally, so that should be fun!
I think that's about all. I'm doing good. I'm out of my depression slump for now. Until the next one, I'm going to look at my relationship with a different outlook. That different outlook is helping so far... Lets hope it continues.
Hope everyone is having a fantastic hump day... It's all downhill from here!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
And I woke up to...
...this song playing on the radio, followed by nudges from Chris at certain points that he liked.
I never had no one
I could count on
I've been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin'
So tired of searchin'
'Til you walked into my life
It was a feelin'
I'd never known
And for the first time
I didn't feel alone
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend, oh yeah
You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend (my best friend)
You're my best friend (my best friend)
I could count on
I've been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin'
So tired of searchin'
'Til you walked into my life
It was a feelin'
I'd never known
And for the first time
I didn't feel alone
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend, oh yeah
You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend (my best friend)
You're my best friend (my best friend)
---I'm doing better. I really am. I've been emailing with a few friends, and they've all helped so much. Sometimes I wonder how I'd get through a day if I didn't have them to talk to, or didn't have the nice wonderful comments left on my blog.
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
----
Smile, please - It's all going to be okay. For all of you that are having a bad day. Stop. Think of the good things in life, or pray. Sometimes that can do wonders. Or, find your favorite song - and listen to it. Over, and over, and Over again. It's going to be okay.
Monday, August 14, 2006
Sigh
I'm doing better. Although all thoughts still linger in the back of my mind. My life isn't ending, I don't have an illness, I'm healthy. Didn't I just get done talking about all the good things I had to look forward to? Maybe I need to read that post again.
I'm going to be okay, I'll get through this - I always do.
*Smile*
Song
So, Chris called at 9:15.... I answer the phone, and his phone is by the radio and this song was playing...
That is *perfect*. I think he knows how I feel.
My flippin horoscope for the day....
Here is the couples love one.... good god, I really am starting to believe in these things.
Monday...
The two of you may be so diametrically opposed about an issue that the hope of ever meeting in the middle seems slight. Perhaps some mediation is in order? A compromise really is possible.
Regular Horoscope...
Quickie: Focus on someone important in your life. You've got so much happening in your life that quieter types might get lost in the shuffle. Make sure they know how important they are to you, and spend some time with them.
Extended Overview: 
The speeding racecar that is your life is about to hit a big, blinking red light. Something unexpected is going to happen today that forces you to stop in your tracks and take a long, slow look at where you are in life. Get ready to reassess your goals. It could be something as simple as a new person coming in to your life or as major as a flat tire on the freeway. Whatever it is, it is meant to be -- so approach it with flexibility and an open mind. Everything happens for a reason.
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I'm in for a ride - a long one I think.....
Monday...
I sit here at my desk, with tears rolling down my cheeks and my chin quivering away - trying to hold back. I could bawl... just literally scream and cry like you wouldn't believe. I'm so emotional lately, I can't handle it. I don't know what to do to fix anything - or to make myself happy. Sometimes I feel like I put on an act, just to make myself think that I'm happy -but when I can't do that anymore I either blow up at Chris, or sit by myself and weep....uncontrollably. Last night I told Chris that I can't handle being an emotional roller coaster... he told me I've changed ever since I got pregnant. He said he wants that happy person back that he fell in love with...he's gotten to the point where if it doesn't change, he said he wasn't sure if he'll sign the lease again in October. I'm a happy positive girl - I honestly am - I just don't know where I've been lately....That other girl is missing, and I want her back. I want to be happy - I don't want to have to hold back the tears. All the time.
I hate it. Absolutely hate it... :'(
Friday, August 11, 2006
At last
It's Friday. Thank god...
I would like to stay home this weekend and get some stuff done around home. Laundry, General Cleaning, etc... You know, the fun things. But we're going up north. I told Chris last night that we don't need to go somewhere every single weekend. His reason why we do: It costs money to stay home - so when we go to our parents, we get free meals............
....??? Alright, so - who says we can't actually eat the food that's in our cupboards and relax on the weekend. Hmm, not him!
Anyway, all is good - I'm glad it's Friday.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
On a happy note!
Ah, it felt good to get that out!
Chris wasn't feeling good this morning/last night - so I brought him some meds and ginger ale and set it on the seat of his truck today at work.. How nice huh?
I love him - so much.
Oh, and by the way - my parents know this girl exaggerates horrible, and they know she's negative. My dad, my entire family including my family all adore Chris. So what she says, obviously is all her own opinion. Phew!
Everyone have a good day.. sorry if that previous post was really crabby, I just needed to get it out.
:) Love to all...
K
Really, frustrated.... That's what I am today....
Well - sort of. I'm not mad at anyone other than one person, and no that one person is not Chris. :)
So you see - I have this one girlfriend who i've known since I was born, grew up together, she baby sat me, we remained friends, best friends, now we're slowly parting ways... however I still call her and talk almost daily and when I need to, I vent about Chris. Everyone needs there person to go to for advice, or to let out a little steam. So, I always thought - well she'd give me an honest thought of what she thinks and help to sooth my mind. Well... I was wrong. Now yes, I understand she may just be looking out for me sometimes -but this gets to be a little too much.
Now this girl - she's the type that she has her own opinion on anything, and anything she tries to say or do - will be the best, and is the best and you cannot prove her wrong. Sometimes that's a good thing, other times its bad... or when you tell her something bad, the second she hears that about that person - she hates them. She's been this way with every one of my friends.... EVERY ONE. It's almost as if she doesn't want me to have any friends other than her - because a) they either did something minor to me or b) just jealousy. Oh, and she over exaggerates - uncontrollably almost to the point of lying. bad.
Well you see - I confided in her and told her about some issues with Chris. Immediately it was .. "Ohh, I don't like him Krystle"... mind you, she's never even met him yet. So, I just go along and give her the 'yeah, yeah'...well, it's getting worse and worse. She finally met him - said he was a nice guy, but quiet... and she proceeds to tell me that I can't be with someone who is quiet. So - okay, whatever - I like him, so I don't care... I move on. She is at my parents house one day while we're visiting and she's with her boyfriend who is "oh so perfect in every way and they're going to get married, buy a house, have babies, be rich, get married in florida... la de frickin da..." anyways, she bases all relationships on that ... oh, and let me remind you - she just got out of a 4 year horrifying relationship... did I put her down for that and tell her that I hated her ex? No. Because I'm not that low. Really, I'm not ... I like to look at the positive side of things... vs. jumping to the negative right away. That's a good thing, right? .... She doesn't think so.
So the other day, I was talking to her about my thoughts/feelings and I didn't say a whole lot or give her the whole story - just because I know she'd hate him more - which I'm reminded of just how much she hates him, every single flippin time I talk to her - which yes, gets to be oh so very frustrating because I do, truthfully - love him.So - then she jumps and says, oh I have someone you should meet - I'm going to have him email you. WHAT? No, I don't want to meet this other person, nor am I looking for anyone else. If he emails - I will not reply... She got frustrated. Then she proceeds to say .. 'yeah, I called your dad the other night and told him how much I hate Chris and how bad he treats you' ... EXCUSE ME??? You do not call a dad, who has a daughter, and that she's an only child and a daddy's girl - that she isn't being treated right, and you don't tell my dad 'you just wait until you find out.' ... That's rude. Down right rude.... Then she tells me that, "Oh and your grandpa hates him too - absolutely hates him" .... Again, please - you do not tell my family what's going on, nor do you tell them how much you hate my boyfriend. I can shoot down and say rude comments about Chris - but NO ONE else can. Absolutely not. So, every phone conversation I have with her she reminds me of those to things. I can't handle it. I love Chris - he's not a bad guy, and he does so much for me that well, he just doesn't deserve to be treated that way. Who does?
She keeps trying to call me and ask me to return her calls and she's being rude and bitchy about it. I know she didn't call my dad or grandpa and say those things, so - really, why would you say anything like that in the first place? Why. Pull your head out of your ass and think before you speak.
Does she honestly think I'm going to call her back?
I don't think so. Not for a while anyway. I'm plenty capable to make my own choices and know what is right in my relationship or what needs to be fixed. I'm a big girl now, and know what's right.
By the way - yes, my relationship is fine, and yes I'm as happy as can be. I don't need any assistance, and I guess now - I'll keep my comments to myself. Thanks.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
It's a great...
...day to be alive, I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes.
I'd have to say that I'm happy. Just plain old I'm happy. I've had my doubts lately with certain things, I've had my ever long nights of thinking and wondering about the future. I've realized, alot. Alot that normally wouldn't even phase me. And, that alot that normally wouldn't even phase me - has changed me. Changed me for the better. I've really had the chance to think about what I want, who I am, where I want to go in life, who I want to be with, and how I'll make my life - how I want to live it and at last, I think I'm finally happy. I'm content with the fact that I'm going back to school. I'm going to have an education. No more worrying and wondering about if I were to want to change jobs, and/or move to a different city... How would I get a job that pays as well as mine right now, with no education? Where would I go? Who would I turn to? I didn't want someone to have to support me for the rest of my life - so I made the choice to do something about it. In 3 years, I'll be in a medical career - I'll have what I always dreamed of and I'll be able to have that car I always wanted - or that house I've always wanted. It will complete itself, all because of one great choice that only I myself, chose to make.
Relationships come and go and life changes, but when you meet that sole person - you have that feeling. That one feeling of Wow, I think I'm going to be with this person for ever. I've had my thoughts lately about relationships, and really had a chance to analyze everything. I sat down and gave it a hard thought. I realized one thing. I-can't-live-without-him. I always thought, you know well they always say - Grass is greener on the other side. Not particularly true. Sometimes. Yes. But, right now - I don't see it. The feeling I get when I imagine my life without him - gives me the chills like you wouldn't believe. I've told him I want some more 'only me' time, and we need to be more individual... and with that said, we'll be come closer than ever. I've realized that, since we talked about it. It's good, it's really good - and what the future will bring... I can hardly wait.
Everyone chooses to live their life. You can live it bad. You can dwell on things. You can get frustrated, when really - is it that bad? You can get mad easily. You can lose your temper. You can push people away. You can lose the people you love, because of a choice you make. Or, You can wake up and have a good day. You can look at the positive side of things. You can get frustrated because we all do, but let it go - once it's done, forget about it and move on. Have patience, and don't get so angry - so easily. When your temped to lose your temper. Stop. Ask yourself... Is this what I really want? Will I regret doing this later? Most importantly - Don't lose the people you love, because of a selfish mistake you made, or a terrible choice you made. Life is short, and we only have one chance. Live it like you want to, and be happy. Happiness is a wonderful thing.
Give a hug, or smile at someone today - I bet they'll hug you and smile at you in return.
Have a wonderful day everyone...
Love. Smiles. Hugs. Happiness.
K
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Tuesday...
Happy Tuesday!
Sorry I've been lacking on updates. I've been busy busy.
On the school front - I got my reciprocity approved. Yay! It will be $177/credit vs. $254/credit. woohoo!
I'll try to be back later to update a little more... I have some interesting news/stories...
Love you all.
Monday, August 07, 2006
I feel really bad...
...when my Mom comes to my desk at work, and asks if I want to go for a walk and lunch with her - and I turn her down. And, she walks away with what I see as a sign of doubt and sadness, which makes me feel incredibly bad.
Really, bad.
The wonderful effects of being an only child. You feel bad if you don't do anything with your parents, when they ask you to.
I hate that.
Really, bad.
The wonderful effects of being an only child. You feel bad if you don't do anything with your parents, when they ask you to.
I hate that.
Picture Time!
Here I am... This morning - Yes, in my car, on my way to work - driving.
... Thought I'd share! :)
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Check
Apply to College.... Check
Apply for Financial Aid.... Check
Take the Placement Test.... Check
Register for Classes.... Check
Take my pic for school ID.... Check
Am I ready to do this again?.... Check
So, last night went good. I had my placement test... I did better than I thought which made me happy. I finished registering last night, now all I need to do is see if there is a Reciprocity form for Wisconsin residents. Then hopefully my tuition won't be so freakin high. Argh! Since I didn't qualify for any aid - I got the original loan and with me being a Wisconsin Resident, and the college is in Minnesota - I am going to go over the alotted loan money they automatically give you by like $500, and then there's books...etc, etc, etc.... So, I'm going to see what other options I have. Yes, I have to do this all before August 11th. I guess that's what I get for waiting so late to apply and get this going.
So I told you I was going to give an I don't like, or I hate, or I don't love list... but really, I don't think that's necessary. I talk occasionally about things I don't like or things that aggrivate me, and I think that's good enough. If I really get bored today, I'll be back and maybe post something like that - but until then, I'm going to hold off.
Chris's dad came to stay with us last night and tonight. It's kind of nice to have that extra company. I made supper for them - Hamburger Stroganoff... homeade. It is so good... My mom makes it the best, but I think last night I was pretty darn close. Chris's dad even said I did a good job. Woohoo! Then, tomorrow lucky Chris has off work. He's going to get bigger tires and a bigger lift kit in his truck.... I personally think it's big enough already, but obviously it's not good enough for him.... Not that any of you care, but if I find some pictures - I'll post them on here.
Alright, I'm off to check out Reciprocity forms... they make these things so freakin hard to find, for Wisconsin Residents. All I can find are forms for MN Res's to go to WI. Grrr!!!!
Have a good day bloggers!
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
So True!
Read here... I think many would agree with her post. I know I do! (Minus the kid part of course!)
There's more...
I just realized there's alot more I love's to add to that list.... I'll finish it later! :)
Happy Hump Day!
I love Caribou. I love muffins. I love driving. I love peacfulness. I love rain. I love working (sometimes). I love Chris. I love life. I love blogging. I love vacations. I love having a clean house. I love company at home. I love cooking what I know how to cook. I love my car (kind of!). I love having friends. I love Wisconsin. I love German Shepards. I love my parents. I love St. Cloud. I love camping. I love having a weeked upnorth. I love meeting new people. I love succeeding in life. I love studying (sometimes!). I love emailing. I love the internet (too much). I love hopeful/happiness quotes. I love talking with friends. I love most things that make me happy.....
An I don't love list will come later....
Have a good day! :)
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Upsetting Moment
Well -
I just went down to the main lobby floor to McDonalds to get a McFlurry when I looked to my left and there was my old coworker who just had a baby. For the first time since around the time I had my D & C, I got back in the elevator and broke into tears. Even though it's been a little over a month since my miscarriage... but I still got that lump in my throat, eyes filled up with tears...and just asked, why couldn't that have been me? I want a baby.
I didn't stick around long for everyone from the department to get down there because only a few know I had a miscarriage and the ones who don't, will say like they've said previously about how that will be me in a few short months and ask how I'm feeling when frankly, sometimes I can talk about it, but usually I really don't feel like getting into it and explaining it all. I know eventually they'll ask again since they won't see my tummy - but I don't feel like getting into it at work and hearing the "Ohh I'm so sorry I asked..." sympathy rant, those who've been through a m/c know what I'm talking about.
.... For now, It's on the down low ..... For now ..... Until I absolutely have to talk about it again.
I just went down to the main lobby floor to McDonalds to get a McFlurry when I looked to my left and there was my old coworker who just had a baby. For the first time since around the time I had my D & C, I got back in the elevator and broke into tears. Even though it's been a little over a month since my miscarriage... but I still got that lump in my throat, eyes filled up with tears...and just asked, why couldn't that have been me? I want a baby.
I didn't stick around long for everyone from the department to get down there because only a few know I had a miscarriage and the ones who don't, will say like they've said previously about how that will be me in a few short months and ask how I'm feeling when frankly, sometimes I can talk about it, but usually I really don't feel like getting into it and explaining it all. I know eventually they'll ask again since they won't see my tummy - but I don't feel like getting into it at work and hearing the "Ohh I'm so sorry I asked..." sympathy rant, those who've been through a m/c know what I'm talking about.
.... For now, It's on the down low ..... For now ..... Until I absolutely have to talk about it again.
And I...
...Will try to fix you.
And high up above or down below.
When too in love, to let it go.
But if you never try, you'll never know.
Just what you're worth.
Lights will guide you home.
And ignite your bones.
But I will try, to fix you.
Tears stream, Down your face.
When you lose something you can't replace.
Tears stream, Down your face...
And I..............
Tears stream, Down your face.
I promise you will always learn from your mistakes.
Tears stream, Down your face....
And I..............
Lights will guide you home.
And ignite your bones.
And I will..try..to fix you.
T is for Tuesday
Good Morning!
Ah I'm tired. And, hungry! And, I stink. Yes, I said I stink. I put on this new perfume this morning and it's not connecting with me today. It's actually kind of giving me a headache... Maybe that's why I chose to put it in the back of the shelf when I used it last time. Hmm.
Supper was good last night... I had cheeseburgers, waffle fries, seasoned sour cream, and beans all ready for Chris when he walked in the door. Nice girl I am! Now, if I could do that every night. Hah, wishful thinking.
Not much to post right now - I'll come back if I actually have something interesting and fun, to say. For now, I'll smile and be happy and make it a good day... :)
Off to get some b-fast.
Ah I'm tired. And, hungry! And, I stink. Yes, I said I stink. I put on this new perfume this morning and it's not connecting with me today. It's actually kind of giving me a headache... Maybe that's why I chose to put it in the back of the shelf when I used it last time. Hmm.
Supper was good last night... I had cheeseburgers, waffle fries, seasoned sour cream, and beans all ready for Chris when he walked in the door. Nice girl I am! Now, if I could do that every night. Hah, wishful thinking.
Not much to post right now - I'll come back if I actually have something interesting and fun, to say. For now, I'll smile and be happy and make it a good day... :)
Off to get some b-fast.
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