A simplified look at my life...

I sit here at my desk, with tears rolling down my cheeks and my chin quivering away - trying to hold back.  I could bawl... just literally scream and cry like you wouldn't believe.  I'm so emotional lately, I can't handle it.  I don't know what to do to fix anything - or to make myself happy.  Sometimes I feel like I put on an act, just to make myself think that I'm happy -but when I can't do that anymore I either blow up at Chris, or sit by myself and weep....uncontrollably.  Last night I told Chris that I can't handle being an emotional roller coaster... he told me I've changed ever since I got pregnant.  He said he wants that happy person back that he fell in love with...he's gotten to the point where if it doesn't change, he said he wasn't sure if he'll sign the lease again in October.  I'm a happy positive girl - I honestly am - I just don't know where I've been lately....That other girl is missing, and I want her back.  I want to be happy - I don't want to have to hold back the tears. All the time.  

 

I hate it. Absolutely hate it...  :'(