A simplified look at my life...

Breakfast: McDonalds =( McGriddle - Hashbrown patty - Orange Juice
Lunch: Salad - Lettuce - Cottage Cheese - Cheese - Croutons - Ranch Dressing
Dinner: Whatever Chris's mom makes us ... It will be good either way! =)

Weekend plans -

Relaxing, Track meet, Planting Trees, Come home.

Not too terribly exciting ... sorry!

More later

"Do not compare yourself with others. You may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself...

...Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass...

- Excerpts from 'Desiderata'

Good Morning...

Well it's 7:20 am, and I'm sitting here relaxing at my desk. It's been a great 2 days. I get to the point where I don't want to go home ... I just want to keep learning!! Sad, huh?

I'm having a wonderful week, to say the least. I really think this new job has continued to boost my confidence. Sometimes that's just what one person needs. It comes to a point in life when you just need to stop. Think. realize where you're going, and proceed with what you feel you need to do. If we would never do that, there would be no structure, and our lives would all be a living hell. literally.

It also really helps to post your thoughts and ideas, or anything that is bothering you on here because 1 - it relieves stress 2 - others are reading it and they might offer help and/or ideas and 3 - anything you put on here that you want to do ... you will be held to it, because you wrote it down.

That's it for now folks ... everyone have a wonderful Friday, and remember ... you can decide how you want to have your attitude for the day - why not make it worth it, and make it a good one. If you go into work, or wake up crabby .. you're going to be crabby. So, wake up - smile and think life is good.

Cause it is.

Quickly.... I LOVE my desk, my job and my co workers ...

I'm set .. and ready to go.

Today: I love life!

So - it's 6 am, and I am still home. Weird.

Because it's my first day, they want me to work 8 to 4:45, so I don't have to leave here until 7. Which that makes it an hourand a half later than what I normally do. It's kinda strange, and I feel like I am sleeping in. I used to get up at 4:30. Ahh, that was early. Starting friday though, I am working 7-3:45 - which will be nice. I used to work 6:45-3:30, so it's only 15 minutes later. I think I'll survive.

Oh hey, I have some new pictures on my photos on yahoo....

I better get in the shower. I hope all of you have a wonderful wonderful day, and I will definately be back to post more. I'll try to on lunch ... but I'm just not sure when that will be!

Talk to you bloggin bloggity bloggers lata... Oh, and It's going to be a good day. Cause I said so!

Krystle =)

*Sniffle Sniffle* *Sniffle Sniffle*

I'm a bit saddened by leaving today ... I will miss everyone here, so much!! They had a great little party for me ... lots of good food, and a gift card to Target for $55. How sweet of them!! =)

So ... I have to do this quick since I'm just finishing up packing, and the way I go....

Tomorrow is a new day, with new possibilities ... Lets hope they are wonderful ones!!!!!

I'll try to post more tomorrow, but I'm not promising .........

Hugs to all,

Krystle

"It is not easy to live life some times and face the world with a smile when you are crying inside. It takes a lot of courage to reach down inside yourself, hold on to that strength that's still there and know that tomorrow is a new day wit new possibilities. But if you can just hold on long enough to see this through, you'll come out a new person-stronger, with more understanding and with a new pride in yourself knowing you made it."

~Author Unknown

Y a y , i t i s m y l a s t d a y o f w o r k . I a m s o e x c i t e d ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

L - Love
I - Is
F - Freakin
E - Exciting

Translation: Love and Life, go hand in hand. Whether it's a good mix, or a bad mix. Either way, they're both exciting, in their only little uNiQuE ways.

Doesn't anyone know how to add a friend to your site??

That there are many people out there like me. It's unbelievable. For a while there, I thought that I was the only one going through heartache, and sadness, and loneliness ... but at last, I am not. That's why I love these blogs so much ... you can get out and write freely, and know... that someone out there is, in fact reading, what you're writing.

I love the blogging world.

A long time adult friend of mine just passed away this morning from ALS. Also known as Lou Gerhigs Disease. It's such a sad thing to happen, although we know she is in a happier place now. She can run free ... unlike before. ALS cripples your body, but you know where your mind is at all times. It's like your body is running away from you, and you can't do anything about it.

RIP Jane. You're an angel now ...

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack,I've been too long, I'm glad to be back" Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos.But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship.You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love.
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you
Your flirting style: friendly and sweet
What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance
Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

Good Morning ... Good Morning!

Quick blog for me right now. Just wanted to say Good Morning. I can hardly believe that tomorrow is my last day in this department. Wow. I'm counting today as my "last working day", because tomorrow they're having a food day for me, and I'm sure it will just be talking most of the day, saying good bye. However, today is my last day with my Supervisor ... she will be out tomorrow. It makes me sad... I will definately miss her, and everyone for that matter. I know I'm not going to a different company, but it feels like it, since I'll be switching floors. I gave my Supervisor a gift yesterday, and she started crying. ='( Made me sad. She said my shoes will be very hard to fill. I took that as a compliment. =) I'll also miss working with my Aunt. She is on this floor with me, and the joys of having family right here are awesome. My mom works in the other building, so I see her quite often too... and the floor I'm going to, I'll be working with my neighbor, or used to be neighbor when I lived with my parents in WI. She's the one who got me the job, as it is her old one. She got a promotion. Hopefully I'll be in that spot next year. *Deep Breath*

I'm so freakin' excited ... I can't stand it!!!!! I have a feeling there will be lots of updates today. I better make them now, cause I have a feeling after Thursday, I'll be busy learning my new J.O.B. I'm looking forward to the challenge... Oh am I ever.

Tootles for now ... Everyone have a fabulous day ... (I have the weird butterfly feeling in my tummy!!)

Krystle

Okay - so finally this site is back and running. I was going through withdrawals there for a while. I really don't have much to say - as I'm running out of time to blog, since I have work to do. Hopefully I'll be able to catch up a bit more tomorrow - considering it will be a much slower day than today. Today has been wonderful ... really it has. Chris has been a blast (on the phone), and work has been better than usually. Maybe it's cuz this bug that bit me that's making me excited for Thursday. Who knows. Whatever it is ... I want it every day. =)

I'll try to write before I leave work, but don't count on it. Hopefully I'll have more time to blog tomorrow - as I have quite a bit to say.

I love this blog world .. It excites me. Alot.

Tootles
Krystle

Good Morning to any and all blog readers ...

My weekend was everything associated with relaxing. It was actually quite fantastic, if you ask me. We didn't do a whole lot other than run some errands ... or should I say I ran some errands. I.E. food for lunch, wells fargo, walmart and back home again to sit out on the deck and enjoy the fabulous 80 degree weather. It was absolutely wonderful. The weekend with Chris went great, attitude wise. We didn't fight, AND we just really joked around for the majority of the weekend. It was really, very very nice.

Friday Night
- came home, relaxed.
- did nothing productive
- went to bed

Saturday
- slept in, got up, went to Wells Fargo
- relaxed
- sat outside on the deck for a little while
- went to Hollywood video to get some movies
- Flightplan
- Get Rich or Die Tryin - super good!
- Elizabethtown
- Fun with Dick and Jane - pretty good!
- Brokeback Mountain
- went to bed

Sunday
- got up, went to Panera Bread
- bought some bagels, and fresh bread
- watched Fun with Dick and Jane
- Peg stopped over (Chris's aunt)
- Scott stopped over (Chris's dad)
- played playstation!
- Went to Quiznos
- relaxed
- took a nap
- went to Walmart
- went to bed

Monday
- wonderful world of work!!
- Only 2 more full days left
- then I'm off to my new job. Yay!

Over all, it was a great weekend ... but I spent a little too much mullah.... This next weekend will be good too. Dan has a track meet in Rogers ... Exciting! AND we have to plant trees ... Okay, that won't be SO much fun ... but we'll be outside ... right?! =)

I will update more later .... I've got work to do!

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

I now made a link to my 'new blog' which is this one ... from my old blog. That blog was from a month or so ago - and it was kind of at a different stage of my life. Right now I feel like that blog was the old me. Or shall I say ... the happy me. Right now, my life is just full of frustrations, and I don't know what to do. I'm sorry in advance if this blog comes out as depressing, or I sound like a weirdo when I worry so much ... but this is just my place to get my feelings out. Feel free to leave comments, good and/or bad - or any advice, if someone shall have some. I promise this will get better and/or should I say, more interesting and more cheeful ... but for right now, it's just a mind dumpster. Somewhere I can explain my thoughts, cause if I don't do something like that ... I will have a brain overload ... and it also helps, that someone, or anyone for that matter - can read this, and see or maybe even understand what I'm going through. So ... I appologize in advance, It will get better. So soon, I hope.


Oh and one more thing .... my entries may seem kind of random every once in a while. I'm sorry... like I said, It's just a place when a thought or worry comes to my head ... I'm going to blog about it. It helps. It really does.

I can't concentrate!!! I'm totally in another world .... not associated with work. Maybe it's cause I'm thinking too much. Maybe it's cause I'm excited for my new job next week. Only 3 days left of this job. I can hardly freakin' stand it ..... I hate to see what my last 3 days next week will bring, if it's this bad already.

wow.

I can just about promise that I'll be back to write more .... oh, and another thing .... I have something to write about. Something I need to get out of my system ... and it's about a boy. Not my boyfriend. I'll leave it at that .... so, look for more entries in a little bit, if you're curious. *i have the butterflies in my stomach*

why can't I feel anything. why do I worry so much. friday's are supposed to be fun and exciting, and I feel nothing. not a thing. i have so much to look forward to. whats wrong with me. I think I need some sort of help. why do men, cause so much worry and heart ache. there has to be that one out there that doesnt. why cant i find him. if i could ask god one thing. just one thing. it would be ... to have my day go perfect, or much better than any one this past week and a half and to reassure me of certain things. i need to feel okay again. i need to feel myself back to normal. i need that happy, smiling normal life back. the one thats free of worries. i need it now. help.

this is a prayer i've been saying - i took the first letter from each word. its my little code ... and im hoping it will get me through the day.

ofwaihhbtn,tkctwbdoeaiiih,gutdodb,afuot,awftwtau,alunitt,bdufe.itnotfshs.a gbuml.

You Are 84% Happy

It's unlikely that you know anyone happier than you. You know how to be happy, no matter what life throws at you.

Come out of this phase ... slowly. I've come out of this "relationship worry" phase, for 3 reasons. Okay, maybe more than 3 ... but my reasons are:

1.) Life is too short to dwell on certain things.
2.) If your life is full of worrying - there is no fun.
3.) Enjoy what you have - it will be gone before you know it.

.. and my last reason.. I am probably worrying for more than I should be, and that's not healthy.

Here are some things I should be proud of .....



My Car ... =) My Health ... =))



My Snowmobile ... =) My Car .. Again.. =)



And, last but not least .... My wonderful Boyfriend Chris ....


More later ... I'm going to try to post some songs ... =)

Have a wonderful day, all!

when, you realize it is just that time ... to move on, move forward, and find the good things in life.

That time ... for me ... is now. I've gone through so much worrying, frustrations, thinking about what's happening when I'm not around, worrying about the attitude I'll receive when I walk in the door... and it's time I finish that. It's time I come home welcomed, leave home like I'm welcomed back, know there is going to be someone happy anxiously waiting to see me when I get home, worry-free days at work, no more guessing games, no one treating me like I should not be treated ... It's time to live life, and give it one helluva shot!

I came to that turning point. It took alot. Wait... It takes/is taking alot. It's an on going battle, and one I need to look past and forget about. Everyone has there troubles, and I need to think if I were in their spot. Think long and hard and realize it isn't what it's out to be. Realize that things are better than I think, and I can put trust into people. It's there; now it just needs to come out of hiding. Just because one person ruined that .. doesn't mean someone else doesn't have what that other person didn't. It's only fair and it's only right. It's my time to do what I need to do.

Now, I realize ... life is to short. Way to short. It should not be full of worrying, or thinking negative thoughts. It should be worth every bit of it, and be enjoyable. I should be able to come to work and think, "You know what, This is going to be a wonderful day." Summer is coming, and it is the perfect opportunity to enjoy the bright sunny days and make my day fulfilled with what it should be. Make it exactly how I want it. Exactly how I've dreamn't of it ... NOT, how someone wants it to be. Be proud. Be confident and be exactly who I want to be and enjoy the air, enjoy the sun, and enjoy my surroundings, and my confidence. Raise my self-esteem and be happy for myself. Walk around like I am the only one out there. Show off, like I have everything to show off, and most of all ... do things that make me happy. Enjoy shopping, friends, family, and most of all ... have fun. Life is too short to spend it worrying. Now is my time ... and my time only ... to make the best of it, and live life how I want to be. Proud. Secure. Happy. Excited. Faithful. Energetic. Cheerful.

Life will be good. I will make it that way.

Live Life People ... Live Life! It's a good thing. You can do anything you put your mind to ... everything is in your hands ... and no one can take that away. ever. *wink*

That life, is how you make it.

Everyone comes to a time in their life, when you're in a relationship and one day, you wake up ... and everything falls crashing to the ground. This isn't something we choose to do, isn't something we want to do - but, in the end ... it happens. When this happens, it gives us the wonderful truthful opportunity to fix things. Change them to how, WE want them to be. To better ourselves, and make us that strong person. Sometimes these problems go down the wrong tube - sometimes, they change us and make us a better person, and we work through our problems, to strive and be who we want to be. You finally realize - that is the best chance somebody could give you .... 2nd chances are well worth it, especially when it's a dear loved one, family, or friend ... It brings joy, happiness, worry, frustrations ...but in the end, a loving relationship that has worked through it's trouble... is 10 times as stronger as it was before it happened. Here's to a new beginning, and a new chance at making things how they used to be. Trust will come back, things will change, and life will be complete....... I pray every single day, or life to take it's course, and it is now - that I must put my faith and trust in someone else, and let that happen. Here we go.