A simplified look at my life...

why can't I feel anything. why do I worry so much. friday's are supposed to be fun and exciting, and I feel nothing. not a thing. i have so much to look forward to. whats wrong with me. I think I need some sort of help. why do men, cause so much worry and heart ache. there has to be that one out there that doesnt. why cant i find him. if i could ask god one thing. just one thing. it would be ... to have my day go perfect, or much better than any one this past week and a half and to reassure me of certain things. i need to feel okay again. i need to feel myself back to normal. i need that happy, smiling normal life back. the one thats free of worries. i need it now. help.

this is a prayer i've been saying - i took the first letter from each word. its my little code ... and im hoping it will get me through the day.

ofwaihhbtn,tkctwbdoeaiiih,gutdodb,afuot,awftwtau,alunitt,bdufe.itnotfshs.a gbuml.