Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Upsetting Moment
Well -
I just went down to the main lobby floor to McDonalds to get a McFlurry when I looked to my left and there was my old coworker who just had a baby. For the first time since around the time I had my D & C, I got back in the elevator and broke into tears. Even though it's been a little over a month since my miscarriage... but I still got that lump in my throat, eyes filled up with tears...and just asked, why couldn't that have been me? I want a baby.
I didn't stick around long for everyone from the department to get down there because only a few know I had a miscarriage and the ones who don't, will say like they've said previously about how that will be me in a few short months and ask how I'm feeling when frankly, sometimes I can talk about it, but usually I really don't feel like getting into it and explaining it all. I know eventually they'll ask again since they won't see my tummy - but I don't feel like getting into it at work and hearing the "Ohh I'm so sorry I asked..." sympathy rant, those who've been through a m/c know what I'm talking about.
.... For now, It's on the down low ..... For now ..... Until I absolutely have to talk about it again.
I just went down to the main lobby floor to McDonalds to get a McFlurry when I looked to my left and there was my old coworker who just had a baby. For the first time since around the time I had my D & C, I got back in the elevator and broke into tears. Even though it's been a little over a month since my miscarriage... but I still got that lump in my throat, eyes filled up with tears...and just asked, why couldn't that have been me? I want a baby.
I didn't stick around long for everyone from the department to get down there because only a few know I had a miscarriage and the ones who don't, will say like they've said previously about how that will be me in a few short months and ask how I'm feeling when frankly, sometimes I can talk about it, but usually I really don't feel like getting into it and explaining it all. I know eventually they'll ask again since they won't see my tummy - but I don't feel like getting into it at work and hearing the "Ohh I'm so sorry I asked..." sympathy rant, those who've been through a m/c know what I'm talking about.
.... For now, It's on the down low ..... For now ..... Until I absolutely have to talk about it again.
// posted by Krystle @ 12:37 PM 
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Oh, sweetheart! ((((HUGE HUGS))))
It's completely normal to be upset like this. It's very dramatic what you went through. We're all here for you, any shape and form you need!
Eventually, people will quit asking. And maybe someday people will quit being so nosey too!
Love you babes! Keep your head up.
It's completely normal to be upset like this. It's very dramatic what you went through. We're all here for you, any shape and form you need!
Eventually, people will quit asking. And maybe someday people will quit being so nosey too!
Love you babes! Keep your head up.
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: 2:18 PM, August 01, 2006
: 2:18 PM, August 01, 2006 
A big hug for you krystle. You're not alone you know...you've so many friends, and you can count on any of them for help and support and yes, hugs too. Keep smiling krystle!
Josh
Josh
Stacy... I replied to you earlier via email. But, we need to talk again today... yikes.
Drama... Thank you. Being strong is the key. I'm gonna keep on, keepin on! :)
Josh... Thanks bunches for the hugs - For a while I felt like I was being selfish and "wanty", but I think it's okay to feel those feelings then. I'm incredibly happy for her and the baby, and that just reminds me that some day I'll have one of my own. Just right now, wasn't the time. I'll keep on smiling... that's what matters most! Thanks again... :) PS.. I'll have to check up on your blog some more. I hope Jecca is feeling better, and getting out of that depression mode. I remember the depression like it was yesterday... It wasn't good, So I hope she's doing great now.. :)
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Drama... Thank you. Being strong is the key. I'm gonna keep on, keepin on! :)
Josh... Thanks bunches for the hugs - For a while I felt like I was being selfish and "wanty", but I think it's okay to feel those feelings then. I'm incredibly happy for her and the baby, and that just reminds me that some day I'll have one of my own. Just right now, wasn't the time. I'll keep on smiling... that's what matters most! Thanks again... :) PS.. I'll have to check up on your blog some more. I hope Jecca is feeling better, and getting out of that depression mode. I remember the depression like it was yesterday... It wasn't good, So I hope she's doing great now.. :)
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