A simplified look at my life...

...day to be alive, I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes.

 

I'd have to say that I'm happy.  Just plain old I'm happy.  I've had my doubts lately with certain things, I've had my ever long nights of thinking and wondering about the future.  I've realized, alot.  Alot that normally wouldn't even phase me.  And, that alot that normally wouldn't even phase me - has changed me.  Changed me for the better.  I've really had the chance to think about what I want, who I am, where I want to go in life, who I want to be with, and how I'll make my life - how I want to live it and at last, I think I'm finally happy.  I'm content with the fact that I'm going back to school.  I'm going to have an education.  No more worrying and wondering about if I were to want to change jobs, and/or move to a different city... How would I get a job that pays as well as mine right now, with no education?  Where would I go?  Who would I turn to?  I didn't want someone to have to support me for the rest of my life - so I made the choice to do something about it.  In 3 years, I'll be in a medical career - I'll have what I always dreamed of and I'll be able to have that car I always wanted - or that house I've always wanted.  It will complete itself, all because of one great choice that only I myself, chose to make.

 

Relationships come and go and life changes, but when you meet that sole person - you have that feeling.  That one feeling of Wow, I think I'm going to be with this person for ever.  I've had my thoughts lately about relationships, and really had a chance to analyze everything.  I sat down and gave it a hard thought.  I realized one thing.  I-can't-live-without-him.  I always thought, you know well they always say - Grass is greener on the other side.  Not particularly true.  Sometimes.  Yes.  But, right now - I don't see it.  The feeling I get when I imagine my life without him - gives me the chills like you wouldn't believe.  I've told him I want some more 'only me' time, and we need to be more individual... and with that said, we'll be come closer than ever.  I've realized that, since we talked about it.  It's good, it's really good - and what the future will bring... I can hardly wait.

 

Everyone chooses to live their life.  You can live it bad.  You can dwell on things.  You can get frustrated, when really - is it that bad?  You can get mad easily.  You can lose your temper.  You can push people away.  You can lose the people you love, because of a choice you make.  Or, You can wake up and have a good day.  You can look at the positive side of things.  You can get frustrated because we all do, but let it go - once it's done, forget about it and move on.  Have patience, and don't get so angry - so easily.  When your temped to lose your temper.  Stop.  Ask yourself... Is this what I really want?  Will I regret doing this later?  Most importantly - Don't lose the people you love, because of a selfish mistake you made, or a terrible choice you made.   Life is short, and we only have one chance.  Live it like you want to, and be happy.  Happiness is a wonderful thing.

 

Give a hug, or smile at someone today - I bet they'll hug you and smile at you in return.

 

Have a wonderful day everyone...

Love. Smiles. Hugs. Happiness.

 

K