Thursday, May 11, 2006
I'm ... so ... FRUSTERATED ...
... why, because of some stupid thing ... and I've done so good with not letting this certain thing get to me, but GOD DAMNIT ... it always happens right when I say I don't get mad about it, but then it hits me ... right before f#ck!n bed.
I love him so much, it's just that - ahhh, respect for others? I wanted him to come to bed, so I could go to bed (and so I could snuggle, cuz I always fall asleep better that way), and cause if he stays up later - then I wake up later and it's just a mess ... for me. Maybe I should quit being so selfish when it comes to shit like this.
Maybe I'm making a worse deal out of it, than it really is ....
What it is, is making me feel like shit - and I just want me to be happy right now ....
and to top things off, jokingly this morning .. I said "You don't love me anymore." and he said ... "maybe I don't." ....
What the hell kind of reply is that? .....
Ahh, life sucks ... right now ...
... why, because of some stupid thing ... and I've done so good with not letting this certain thing get to me, but GOD DAMNIT ... it always happens right when I say I don't get mad about it, but then it hits me ... right before f#ck!n bed.
I love him so much, it's just that - ahhh, respect for others? I wanted him to come to bed, so I could go to bed (and so I could snuggle, cuz I always fall asleep better that way), and cause if he stays up later - then I wake up later and it's just a mess ... for me. Maybe I should quit being so selfish when it comes to shit like this.
Maybe I'm making a worse deal out of it, than it really is ....
What it is, is making me feel like shit - and I just want me to be happy right now ....
and to top things off, jokingly this morning .. I said "You don't love me anymore." and he said ... "maybe I don't." ....
What the hell kind of reply is that? .....
Ahh, life sucks ... right now ...
// posted by Krystle @ 3:58 AM 
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