A simplified look at my life...

Well -

I think -

Chris and I -

are going to be -

parents -



I'm still in a state of shock, I think ... yesterday, Chris was up north fishing (all weekend) and he said, well ... why don't you take a test some time this weekend and then we'll know for sure... (we kind of had an idea already) ... so I had a test there already, and at 1:30 pm Sunday when I got home from my parents, I thought ... well, I think I'm going to take it.

I barely put the test on the floor after I took it, and 2 lines showed up in a + ..... I looked in the mirror at myself, like HOLY SH!T! ... so in my excitement/and worrying ... I called a friend. I had to tell somebody. She couldn't believe it... but was excited, and said I'd be okay. Then I got off the phone with her, and started texting her ... well stupid, me ... and I feel bad about this ... but I was texting her cause she asked what I was going to tell Chris ... and I said well he is kind of expecting it, but I will say (and I mean't this jokingly!) .. "Well buddy, youre going to be a daddy"... "he'll probably pass out" ... and instead of SENDING THIS TO MY FRIEND ... I sent it to CHRIS. He was 2 blocks from home, and he pulled in ... I ran downstairs, and he leaped out of his truck, opened the door and looked at me and said... "What's up with the texts messages you sent me??" .. and I right away, just about keeled over. He goes.. "Did you take the test?" and I looked at him like .. "yeah....." ... "And it was positive??" .. and I said... quietly again ... "yeah....." .. and he looked at me again, and had a HUGE smile on his face ... "ARE YOU SERIOUS?????" ... "You're kidding..." ... NO! Are you serious ...?? and I had to tell him OVER and OVEr again that.. um, yep it's the real deal........ and he grabbed me and gave me a huge hug and asked if I was excited......................................... Phew!!

So then, after us both looking at each other thinking, oh my god... ... He said, well maybe you should take another one.. So we ran to Walmart and got a few groceries and got another test. (A different brand.) and I got home, and took it ... and it was no longer than 20 seconds... I took the test and handed it to Chris and the 2 = lines were already showing up .. and I said, yep... looks like it's a for sure.

That was followed by a big smile and hug....

So, needless to say - I actually am excited. I was a little leary after the first test just thinking, well it just might be wrong, I'm not going to get my hopes up ... but after I took the 2nd test ... I figured how can 2 tests be wrong that are over 99% effective.

He called his mom, and talked to her ... and she told his dad ... they didn't say a whole lot, but I guess...what can they really say?? He was a little bummed, and upset last night crying that he just wanted to talk to his dad, and he feels like his dad is mad at him...... Then, I got up the nerve to call my mom ... well, she said a birth is better than a death.. and congratulations sweetie... Now, me.. I'm an only child, so I was a bit worried about this... but they handled it better than I thought. I guess my dad just kind of sat there in a blank stare smiling.... ah. I'm glad I told them though, and go the news out......

So, Wednesday I have an appointment with the doctor at 8:30 am.....

More news to follow then ..... If I make my calculations right ... I think I'm between 9 - 11 weeks ... I could be wrong, but that's just my judgement....

Now I feel like the bond between Chris and I is on a much different level... and I feel that much closer to him, knowing that wow... i think there is something "in there" and it's both of ours.... It's just a weird strange, yet exciting feeling...


Ohh, how life changes......... they say everything happens for a reason....


WOW.